I feel AMAZING and I shouldn’t. Last night I went to bed about 11, I think, but I was wide, wide, wide awake. So, instead of lying there worrying about how in the world I would be able to accomplish my "to do list" the next day I got up! I went down into the kitchen and ate some beef stroganoff and watched Penelope! It rocked! Still wide awake. I opened the fridge and got out my leftover cream cheese croissant and was greeted by an enormous roach near the door of the microwave. *chills* Nasty little creatures. My croissant was delicious, especially with the addition of cool whip (Surprise, there was some in the fridge!) and amaretto. Still WIDE awake. I think it was about 1 in the morning. Hmm. So, I went back upstairs to my little room with its own air conditioning unit (YAY!) and started reading Liberal Fascism and trying to implement some of the speed reading techniques I'm supposed to be learning. Usually reading at night puts me to sleep, particularly if it’s something heady. I quit reading about 2:15. At 7:3o in the morning my alarm clock told me to get up, and I said NO! So, I got up about 7:45 with a comparatively rare memory of my reading last night, which is most excellent considering that quite often when I read right before I go to sleep I’m sleepy and remember a blur the next day. Wow. I would love to live awake like that all the time with no ill consequences--such as feeling rot the next day.


I would like to feel amazing and have a bright outlook on the world and still have a sense of my own sin. It seems like when things go amazingly that I’m not really thankful from the bottom of my heart to God. I guess it’s just some days. It’s not always like that. What I want to have all the time is a long term visionary agenda (redundant? ;) that realizes the shortness of time and still enjoys the present productively. Right now I think I’ve got it, but I get my hands on something amazing for a moment and then it slips through my grip.

The sun is shining and I feel incredible for only 5 hours of sleep. Well, I do feel a little edgy and look a little grainy. =)